My goals and wishes and thoughts. well, there are way too many of those.
I have so much on my mind. In just a couple of months I will be graduating. I am focusing on organization and trying my best on everything. Including studying. I am focusing on keeping my room and bathroom clean so that my family isn’t always on my ass about it, and so they’ll realize that I am maturing. I am trying to convince my mom to allow me to move to North Carolina. I wouldn’t be doing anything different in NC than I would be at home. The only thing different is I’d probably get more done and I’d be living with my grandmother. The plan is for me to move in with my grandmother- work for a year (i don’t care where as long as I am working and making money and saving money) and then I plan on getting in state to community college and going there for one-two years and then transfering to UNCA. Living back in Charlotte would make me so much happier. I miss it so much. I am so homesick all of the time. I miss my grandmother. I miss my dogs. I miss the weather. I miss my friends. I miss the food. I miss everything. I really do.I miss knowing where I was going. Living here in Hanover, I have no idea where everything is. I have no idea where I am going. It’s really confusing. And living with mimi, I want to have jars. One labeled “college”, one labeled “car”, one labeled “savings”, and one labeled “spending” Ill equally divide my money in each jar every time I get paid and save up for things. The spending jar will be the only jar I will allow myself to touch.
The only thing that could possibly hold me back from moving, is Aaron. I love him more than anything and I feel I will be a complete and total mess. I will be destroyed if I left him. I really don’t think he’d care. But I love him more than anything. I will still leave though, because if we are meant to work, it will work. Even with me living all those miles away. There’s skype, and there’s a phone. &there’s xbox. (we can have xbox movie dates!). I know it’ll work. I will put my faith into our relationship intil there is nothing left.
Aaron, I love you more than anything.
